Glee with a Capella

Ok... Glee is amazazing! I love this show! It is such a refreshing change on Television now. A great use of such wonderful talent and that all of us get to see and enjoy. Why did I not think of a musical TV show? Why am I not ON a musical TV show?!?! That would be so fun!

If you haven't watched or seen any clips from the show. GO WATCH IT! http://www.fox.com/glee

I recently come to realize that Musicals make me really happy. I did not understand the impact of it until I was watching all these online videos of Musicals or a Capella stuff. And I was giddy!! Like truly giddy and excited. Like nothing else could make me happier at that moment. Weird huh? I knew I liked singing and Musicals in general but NEVER became giddy about it before. I love it!

For those who don't know, I am in an a Capella group called "Vocal Tonic" (the name is lame... I know) and we started up practices again. We actually sound good this year and I think we have potential to be even better. We sing some pretty standard and basic stuff but we have a great group of guys that are pretty experienced with a Capella stuff. This group is more casual and we are singing to just have fun and boy howdy, I am having fun.

I also joined another a Capella at the U called "Infrared" (the name is tenative and subject to change but I like it WAY better then the other group). It's a very different style of group that has more Choral singing experience. Also, there are 2 Girls in the group so we have the ability to do different music then just all guy stuff. We are singing for the halloween concert at the U on Friday Oct 30th, and guess what? We are singing "Thriller" ... a Capella!!! And it is awesome. No joke! It makes me so Happy!

These groups are so much fun and I will try to post any videos or music we have from my performances. And GO WATCH GLEE!!!!!!!!

-Doug

Scooter and Werewolves

I FINALLY got my scooter back from the repair shop this morning! Seriously, took forever to just get it down there and then have them look at the damn thing. They literally called me Saturday night after they had finally looked at it and told me what they needed to do and come Tuesday... it was done. Not only did I have to wait in a line for them to come pick it up (since they are in American Fork) but then it had to wait in line from those that had already been there before they even looked at it! grrrr...

Well, regardless of the stress and painful amount of time it took, it's back! And just in time for winter. :P I am just happy to be mobile and doing it on my own for now. :D No more rides, no more mom's car, no more Bus! yay!

Also, this weekend, I hosted an awesome night of Werewolves at my house on Saturday night. The weather was great and was not too cold. With blankets and pillows sprawled out in my backyard, a good 18 people were playing any given game. And then as it grew later, we all piled around my home made fire pit, cuddled up in blankets and chairs and played by the full moon light.

We plan on grouping up during the full moons as kind of a basis for when the next game shall be. I hope to be able to invite more of my veteran werewolf friends so we can be uber leet experts and really enjoy werewolves as it was meant to be. Ultimate werewolves is right up our alley as well. I can't wait to share it with my friends.

OH OH! The very last game... I was a werewolf AND WON! It was gloooooorius!!! But I am pretty sure my friends hate me now and don't ever wanna play with me again or will just kill me off right from the start. O.o I lied so good and played them just as good. Being a werewolf is so much fun! You should try it. :P

-Doug

What to blog about?

That is the question...

Updates on my life? Pictures from events I go to? Diary of my day to day? Just to vent, vent, vent? I just don't know yet.

I like reading other people blogs but most of the time it's a quick skim of things, pausing at the interesting happenings of friends/family. However, I quite infrequently comment on the things I find I want to comment on. Facebook has allowed me to casually glance and respond to the passing updates and going-on's of most of the people I like to keep in touch with. But people update daily or even several times a day so I can easily choose what updates I wnat to chime in on and which ones to just ... look at.

Point is. What does this blog become? Do I want people to really know what is going on with me in an in depth way? or just a quick pass by of what I am doing and feel good about it with out commenting? Do I do it on an almost daily basis, when I do fun stuff, or just to vent...?

I guess I will see what I really want out fo this.

Begin again... maybe

Is this blog really still here? Sure feels like it's exactly how I left it about a year ago.

I realize how un-advanced I really am with the whole internet-ness stuff that is out there. How lazy it is to think everything will stay the same. It's about time that I caught up and utilize what I have in my life RIGHT NOW to get where I want and what I want.

The big scary question is "What do I want?". I guess 10 years is not quite long enough for me to decide yet. :/ Well, it isn't 1999 anymore. And life around me has progressed forward in so great a way and I am still... I really don't know where I am anymore. /sigh

Until then, the internet has put a wealth of info and connection at my fingertips. Although it is intimidating and down right overwhelming at times, I will try to press forward with this blog in hopes my fear of "the future" quells with every blog entry. With most everything I do in my life, I don't know how long it will last...

WoW Wrath of the Lich King Trailer

I guess I'm kind of excited for this to come out in a few more days. :P Okay, I AM excited. but not like uber crazy go nuts excited. Might be fun, might be the same old stuff. We'll see on the 13th.

Impatient Kitty Wants Food

SO freaking cute! I half expected the dude to whack the cat with the fork to get him off. But that would've been not funny.

Just Waking Up

This totally reminds me of Toby. He is always sleeping weird like on his back in cute places. :P And does this stretchy yawny thing too. :( cute!

Face Book.. I gave in.

I finally gave in and created a face book account. So I guess you can come check me out on it. It's still all very new and I am retarded when it comes to using it but it's kind of cool. :P

Let me know if you have an account there and we can be friends.

Headzup: Sarah Palin Interview With Katie Couric On CBS

Holy Crap!!! This is Hilarious, like such as!!

Group Therapy and More.

I'm not sure how many of you know, but I have been going to group therapy since January this year in an attempt to take care of Doug for once in my life. I just wanted to share some of the things I have been going through this last couple months.

Wow. A lot has happened and I'm not sure where to begin. I guess the reason I wanted to post this is because it has become made aware to me that my current behavior has involved and effected almost everyone in my life. I discovered that I have a pattern of seeking out love and attention from the people around me in order the feel important, wanted, and like I mattered BUT I do it in a very negative way which has prevented me from building solid lasting relationships with those who actually care about me. Those people, meaning all of you who come visit my blog. :P

I wanted to point this out because in my attempt to feel loved, I inadvertently sabotage these relationships by pushing you away or "testing" you to see if you will come back. Therefore, achieving my sought after love and affection I wanted. This is unhealthy and I need to accept my friends and families love for me regardless of these false situations I create. Overall, I am sorry I do this to you. I'm not trying to play my game anymore, but it helps me to vocalized these things and make them a reality so I can actually see it and change.

This has been one of several breakthroughs and insights that I have realized while going to therapy this last year. I have become distant with most everyone around me because I am hoping someone will just come to me and love me. I can't do this anymore. My definition of caring and love needs to change.

If you ever wanna talk about this and some of things I may have done or are doing with you and our relationship, please let me know. It's good to talk about these things in order to create a more healthy relationship. I need to open my eyes to those around me who care before it's too late and they are lost.

I realized all I want is to love and be loved in return. So ... I love you all. Those of you who come to my blog unbeknownst to me, It's okay. I need to know you care regardless of evidence from a phone call or posts on this dumb blog. Those aren't the manifestations of love I need to rely on anymore. It's time to accept and believe that those of you who are in my life are here because you want to be. Thank you for listening.

Movin' Out!

I am wanting to move out like TODAY! I am SO SICK of my place and NEED to maintain my sanity some where else. So just wanted to throw that out there is case anyone had something in mind to help me.

Biggest issue, Cat. I have an indoor/outdoor Cat. His name is Toby and he doesn't require much, not even a kitty litter box. I love him so and do not want to have to get rid of him.. :(
I currently pay around $330 in rent including utilities which is great but considering the SMALL HOLE I live in, I am willing to pay more for an upgrade. Max is around $400. I know that's pushing it.. I have my own furniture and stuff like a small couch, Futon, dressers, Tables, Chairs and the like but that can go away via storage or a yard sale of some sorts if REALLY needed.

So there you have it. Any thoughts, ideas, possibilities, directions, etc... LET ME KNOW!

Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog

Okay you gotta watch this video! My friend told me about this and I gotta say it's really entertaining. This is a Joss Whedon Production (Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel) with Neil Patrick Harris (Doogie Howser), Nathan Fillion (Firefly) and Felicia Day (The Guild).

You just gotta get through the first 5 minutes. At least to the first song. That's right it's a MUSICAL! It's so great!



Let me know what you think. :P

Who knows?

Knowing I’m mortal with an end in sight,
Fear rages with in, filling me with fright.
Am I able to rest and last through the night?
Who knows?

Thoughts racing mad as they shroud all desire.
My heart beating wild and will surely expire.
Constant distress, Will this ever tire?
Who knows?

Time slipping away and passing till dawn,
The hope of a life full of joy is gone.
But somehow, I think, Life after goes on.
Who knows?

Long after I go, where then will I be?
In heaven’s embrace? Or a fiery sea?
But then, will time even care about me?
Who knows?

Why should I then try when I’ll cease to exist?
When the moment does come, I’ll no longer persist
What then? Shall I leave but an incomplete list?
Who knows?

Fear over powers and scares me to live.
And death slowly comes and does not forgive
Faced with the choice, to die or relive?
...

Powerthirst

A poem by me

My mind is so full of thoughts yet so empty at the same time
Too many uncertainties and mixed feelings flood my drowning self.
Becoming so lost after finding light and hope from a familiar beacon
Have I failed? Did it only shine for a flicker of time?
Turning to me not so long ago and providing comfort and understanding.
Have I been cast aside and forgotten?

What did I do to shatter the glass of this broken tower?
That once stood strong in the dark night of unanswered questions.
Did I just turn away, looking with my eyes shut?
It’s hard for me to admit it but is all this pain my fault?
I want you; I need you to shine again for me.
Ever constant, you once were, come back to me again!

Shrouded with grief from my own disappointment
The tower fades from my sight and appears distant, absent.
Reaching forward with determination, I take it back again!
Making the choice to embrace the love that shone before,
Filling me with eyes I once used to guide my way.
Refusing to admit defeat as fears of rejection boil to the surface,

Accept my love as I demand it from you constantly.
No more will I stand for being alone and unsatisfied.
No longer will I deny myself from peace and happiness.
I need the light to fill my heart so I can reflect it back
Reinforcing each beacon so it can serve its purpose
I am its purpose, ever looking to it as it looks back at me.

I will have the light because the darkness never leaves.

My Kitty

TOBY!

My 3-footed cat!

-Doug

The Alien Saga

For the past month or so, me and my Roommate, Hamilton, have taken on watching the entire Alien Saga. My Roommate had never seen any of them so I decided to educate him on the subject.We just finished Alien: Resurrection last night so here are my thoughts.

Alien was good considering the time period it was made. It was very slow going and wasn't all blood and guts action. However, the story was a great setup for a much bigger story. Pretty predictable when people start wandering off alone or crawl around in small air shafts. DUH! You are gonna die!! Although there is a huge lame factor to this movie, it provides a great prelude to Aliens. (where the story actually gets good.)

Aliens is BY FAR the best movie in the series. I just love it. SO many great lines that are totally quotable.

"They mostly come out at night. Mostly."
"A day in Corp is like a day on the farm..."
"Gameover man. It's gameover."
"Get away from her you B****!"

Characters that you can actually remember names of: Vasquez, Hudson, Hicks, Apone, Drake, Burke, Lt. Gorman, Bishop, Newt, and of course Ripley. When they died it actually meant something. Especially when Burke got what was coming to him. He was such a Douche Bag. This movie is super intense and has lots of action where it counts. And the most memorable ending ever with the freaking Queen Alien vs. Ripley. Ripley rescuing Newt, Flame throwing the Eggs, Grenade launching the sack, the Queen in the Elevator, Bishop getting torn apart, the Power loader fight and blowing the Queen out the Airlock. Way good! I will continue to quote and watch this movie over and over again.

Alien3 began with quite a bit of explanation in order to set it up. They didn't explain what I saw as this HUGE hole. With Ripley being impregnated with a queen alien inside her, how in the world did an egg get on the ship? We know that the Queen made it on board from the last movie but she ripped herself off the egg sack when she chased Ripley up the elevator. Unless she just grabbed an egg on the go, I don't see how the egg got there in the first place. AND... There had to have been at least 2 eggs if one impregnated Ripley AND another got the dog on the prison planet. They are supposed to die after they lay the egg inside you, so 2 Face suckers had to be on the escape pod. hmmm... Anyway, Other then this obvious hole in my opinion, Alien3 is done well enough that it adds to the Alien story as a whole. Again, predictable at times when and how someone will die, it still provides enough suspense and action to enjoy. Being a more recent made movie, it was written with a broader audience in mind and it does itself justice. With the return of Bishop and Ripley's inevitable death, Alien3 provides enough closure for me. Contrary to popular belief, this was a great Alien movie.

Alien: Resurrection should have never been made. #1 reason: Wynona Rider. Sigorney Weaver is a strong enough female lead and should have been fine with her carrying the lead without sharing it with Wynona... /thumbs down. I don't know why they thought they needed to do that. Besides, Ripley was DEAD! her legacy and all that she gave after she killed herself to stop this thing from spreading. To go and RUIN her legacy and everything she did to exterminate these damn creatures was absolutely RETARDED. I cannot express how idiotic it was to even CONSIDER a 4th Alien. THEN they have a scene where she faces the "failed experiments" or clones of herself and one of them looks at her and says"Kill me!". (reminiscent of the scene in Aliens) How cruel is that!? She ends up having to kill herself?! Like she hasn't been through enough... Oh! Ripley is Half-Alien by the way. Yeah, she has acid for blood and can sense things like an Alien. Apparently, they cloned her with the queen inside her so she took on aspects of the Alien. And get this... The Queen they took out has human aspects! Yeah... she no longer lays eggs but has a HUMAN REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM!! She gives BIRTH to Aliens now... oh oh the ULTIMATE reason this movie SUCKED! The Queen Alien/Ripley LOVE SCENE!!! NO JOKE! It was UBER gay and totally JBG! I repeat, this movie should have never been made. End of story.

So there you go. My Alien Saga review. If you read all of this, I applaud you. Let me know what you think and stuff. I'd love to hear your comments on these movies. Thanks!

-Doug

Guess who I saw?

You'll never guess who came into Macaroni Grill tonight. My old High School Drama teacher, Mr. Stokoe!

It was so crazy! He totally looked the very same and totally remembered me. lol. From being Luther Billis in South Pacific to The Prince of Aragon in The Merchant of Venice. It was a hoot to see him and look back at all the things we did in High School.

We laughed and we reminisced about old memories. Like the time after practice when Mr Stokoe comes running down the Choir hall screaming about "pipes" and "a flood"after Chad Taylor and I were leaving rehearsal. We ran back stage to a shower of water and like 3"of water on the ground. Some pipe broke in the dressing rooms and water was EVERYWHERE! lol! We frantically threw towels, blankets, whatever we could find down at the doorways to the stage. All he wanted to do was stop the water from damaging the wood on the actual stage. I remember coming back stage and thinking Holy Crap! I was in awe as I walked through the flooded hallway when a Ceiling tile came crashing down behind me. I screamed like a girl no doubt. But in the end we got the water turned off and all was well. Good times.

His wife and kids were at the Grill celebrating his sons birthday. I got to Sing Happy Birthday in Italian like I do but it was great to be doing it for his son. It's so nice to share a moment like that with people I know and care about. I guess I love doing it. Especially for an old High School teacher like Mr. Stokoe.

-Doug

(I need to get my old pictures digitized so I can share them with all of you.)

Lacquer Thinner Flame Thrower = FUN

My roommate, Jon, and his Flame throwing, Laquer thinner, Paint sprayer. He is NUTS!
This is in our backyard last summer. We had left over laquer thinner from painting my dresser and bookcase. So what does he do with it? Light it on fire of course! no wonder he is missing a piece of his finger. lol.
Love ya Jon!
-Doug

Which World Of Warcraft Character Are You?

This Survey says I am a Druid.. but In real life I am a Warrior! A Tank to be exact. I take all the beatings, the ridicule, the teasing, the bullies, the hard hitting stuff, and oh yeah... I do that in WoW too. :P

Which World Of Warcraft Character Are You?

Devbook Quizzes!!